Update on Lambs

I don't have a picture to go with this one. It's probably a good thing. This morning Nathan and I went out to feed the lambs early, before his meetings. We were greeted excitedly by four lambs and one was walking around not as excited. I looked to the corner where the lambs slept and there was one still laying there. We fed the four and Nathan took the one that was laying down and I took the other one. The one I had had a lot of fight and energy, but it was fighting food. We finally got about 3 ounces of milk replacer down it, but it wouldn't eat any more. The little one that was laying down wouldn't hardly eat anything. Nathan finally got a few swallows down it, but most of it went on Nathan's overalls. There was nothing we could do. We had to put it back in with the others and come in so Nathan could get to his meetings and I could get me and the kids ready for church. I keep thinking about that poor little lamb out there, probably dying. I'm not sure what else we can do, but it's just hard for me to go about my day like I'm not affected when I really am having a hard time with it. Nathan grew up around animals and knows that some live and some die, but I don't know that I'll ever get used to it. It makes it seem so much more real when you actually see it. I've never been able to watch Nathan kill the chickens. When I come upon an animal dying, I have a hard time. I always wonder if there was anything else I could have done. I know it's important to go to church and I can't stay out there all day, but I don't want that little baby to die alone. I'm sorry this post is such a downer, but I just had to get some feelings out.